:) reminds me of the Beatles song...for me it's reality. my moods have been way down, thus my life has gone into the worm hole. I struggle with just basic daily selfcare, eating, home and yard management...I won't even go to the place of having to go outside my 10' high cement walls surrounding my home. From the outside those walls look like a well cared for yard, inside the fires of hell in my mind.
I'm not asking for much, as I've much to be grateful for...so much...yet this never ending pattern of lethargic life style is creating my own missery. I don't blame bp, it's a condition I've dealt with for a life time and still managed to work for 40 years, raise a son...a challenge for sure, I was Not A Great Mom by any stretch of the imagination, just hoping I was a 'good enough' Mom.
Of all the self help books, utube videos, classes and the multitude of starts and stops...well I got hit last night with my current book I'm reading...bringing the previous post I'd made about Choices full force into those 10' walls around my house.
From reading the first chapter, I'm hoping I've found the 'it', now I just need to find the 'way' as the message is clear, I'm my own worst enemy with the lies I tell myself. So many starts and stops in the past of ???? getting done in ??? amount of time. Well I've not kept My Word To Myself....if I was looking at me, I don't think I'd want to be a friends with me, Not being Honest and following through with what I Said I'd Do...ie starting and stopping over and over again is my pattern...this leads me straight down the worm hole.
Hollis points Directly at the Subcouncious level of the brain and how it will go to the most used, least resistant, and most familiar...thus Staying In The Pattern unless I Make The Choice To Change and Honor Myself by telling myself the truth.
Gramybear and Molly were attacked by a wild dog (I suspect due to the fires). Molly didn't make it. This is so sad. We need to send Gramybear our love and prayers. She is such a sweet person!
We always ask about favorite foods, but Everyone has foods the really dislike. What food do you not care for?I really don't care for bell peppers, cilantro or sauerkraut.