I finally got word form my dr after three or so days..he is upping my celexa and i go in on tuesday for an appointment. I am so dang tired all the time and just getting by emotionally. I dont know what it is to have joy in my life anymore. Nothing makes me truly happy i just feel numb. Is there hope for me that someday i will feel something more then the depths of depression and wanting to die? I have had several suicide attempts and the thoughts and head noise never seem to be far from me. I dont know how to get beyond where i am now.
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