Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I have been sick with my disorders and diseases for about 7years now. I never really understood them until about a few months ago. Actually, I think I more so came to accept these things. So I started getting books and reading articles that would give me tools and advice as to how to get better with in one's self. As I was learning all of the things that I have, and once applied to my daily living, my husband suddenly became very distant and almost spitefull that I was doing okay. Last November he got a DUI. He had to go to jail for 5 months and leave me to the whole house and family on my own. I has yet to apologize to the kids or me for his thoughtlessness and disreguard for his family. I bacame resentful towards him from the night he was jailed to and through now.
About a month and a half ago, he started hinting and behaving to show me that he is having a problem with "us". No...he never had a good reason why. It took him about two weeks to finally tell me in these words, "I can't handle all of this shit. I want this shit out of the house, and I think we need some time to find outselves and decide if this,(as his arms scope the whole area of the house you could see),shit is what I need to be be happy." Later when I asked him, because I was confused as to what he had said or insinuated, "Did you just basically say that you want me to leave? That YOU need to have me and everything with me to be gone so YOU can decide OUR marriage?" He said, "Yeah....Pretty much. I don't know what else to do, but I hate things, this, us right now and I need it to be gone."
So my husband kicked me out of our home and marriage of the past ten years.
My anxiety levels are through the roof. I have to take 4 mg 3x a day to keep from getting sick. And I still end up stuck in my head spinning around and loosing control of my senses and give in to the pity pot of what the hell is so wrong with me that my husband would just throw us/me/our family/our marriage out so easily and non-chelantly.
My Bipolar disorder cycles 1-2x a week, I just am so baffled and when I don't understand something it stirs my soup. ****I call my brain a bowl of soup. When something happens, no matter what it is, if it screws with me, it means that my soup is being stirred. When it's being stirred, it's like this.......your word is L-O-V-E and you have a bowl of alphabet soup in front of you. Now when I say go, you get the letters out that you need for your word. GO.....I put my spoon in the bowl and start to stir it as you try to get your letters for your word. You can't. That is what I mean by my brain or thinking is being stirred.****
I don't know how to settle my soup and deal with or accept my seperation. Every time I try to make a decision about what is going on I always doubt myself and get in an episode.
How can I come to an acceptable place within me to deal with and control things. Both things at once with out the thoughts of doing stupid things or keeping my soup still??
Please,any advice will help
AnnieFaye
About a month and a half ago, he started hinting and behaving to show me that he is having a problem with "us". No...he never had a good reason why. It took him about two weeks to finally tell me in these words, "I can't handle all of this shit. I want this shit out of the house, and I think we need some time to find outselves and decide if this,(as his arms scope the whole area of the house you could see),shit is what I need to be be happy." Later when I asked him, because I was confused as to what he had said or insinuated, "Did you just basically say that you want me to leave? That YOU need to have me and everything with me to be gone so YOU can decide OUR marriage?" He said, "Yeah....Pretty much. I don't know what else to do, but I hate things, this, us right now and I need it to be gone."
So my husband kicked me out of our home and marriage of the past ten years.
My anxiety levels are through the roof. I have to take 4 mg 3x a day to keep from getting sick. And I still end up stuck in my head spinning around and loosing control of my senses and give in to the pity pot of what the hell is so wrong with me that my husband would just throw us/me/our family/our marriage out so easily and non-chelantly.
My Bipolar disorder cycles 1-2x a week, I just am so baffled and when I don't understand something it stirs my soup. ****I call my brain a bowl of soup. When something happens, no matter what it is, if it screws with me, it means that my soup is being stirred. When it's being stirred, it's like this.......your word is L-O-V-E and you have a bowl of alphabet soup in front of you. Now when I say go, you get the letters out that you need for your word. GO.....I put my spoon in the bowl and start to stir it as you try to get your letters for your word. You can't. That is what I mean by my brain or thinking is being stirred.****
I don't know how to settle my soup and deal with or accept my seperation. Every time I try to make a decision about what is going on I always doubt myself and get in an episode.
How can I come to an acceptable place within me to deal with and control things. Both things at once with out the thoughts of doing stupid things or keeping my soup still??
Please,any advice will help
AnnieFaye
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
Have you talked to your husband since he made you leave?
I know this is causing emotional turmoil but do the best yoiu can and your lawyer can ask for more funds due to emotional distress. It may not be the best payback but sometimes we have to take what we can
get. Just between you and me, being away from him is its own reward but socking it to him can be good too!
The best thing you casn do is talk to a friend a family member or a clergy meber and try to get solace that way. Don't bother trying to get your husband back. I tried for 18 years to get my first wife to come back to me. It never worked out. I only got better when I met someone else who could deal with my bp condition. There is hope for you. Be open to what can be rather than what was. The present is where its at so try going there and your future will be brighter and better. Good luck