I'm just here whining a bit. For the past 5 days I've been so depressed that my whole body hurts. Can't wake up in the morning and can"t stay awake during the day. I can't do anything. It sounds gross but, I finally took a shower yesterday after 3 days. I just don't get it. Last week I was happy and I guess I could say a bit manic (I've never used that word when referring to myself, Still going through the Yes I am/No I'm not thing.) I called my doctor and she still has not called back. Everyday I get to that point of "Why am I even here, I'm not working, I barely clean the house, don't cook and when I am depressed like this, I can't even talk to my kids. Mostly my son, he is Deaf and we use sign language, but it is actually hard to move my arms and fingers. This sounds terrible, I know. I feel horrible for him, because Iam not doing much with him this week. This morning is the best I've felt all week. God pease, I hope this passes soon. Somebody tell me this will pass. Right?
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