Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

deleted_user
i been looking for help once more and things are hard right now my dad is in the hospital fighting for his life i am trying to be strong my mom and sisters made a pack to get me out of my parents house so i left and went to the hospital and was doing good when i was there i meet this one young lady that stole my heart the the hospital made us go to are own places would not let us be together that hurt but i dealt with that then i tried to make it on my own just to fall short once more i beat down no place to turn i wanted to go back to school so i could go do some type of work and kick in the teeth my dad has a 2 strokes back to back and i am being blamed for the first one why we got if a fist fight and mom and my sisters think that is when he had the stroke if so dad and i had made up and things were fine i thought and then things hit the fan he is not been the hospital for over three weeks cant eat has blockage to his belly food wont pass and yes yet i am being asked to move out when i cant pay for an apartment on my own i cant do this i need my dad heck i need mom and my sisters no one will talk to me but i am not to think my sisters are booting me out heck no one has asked if i would like to see my dad i seen him one time one the hole time he been the hospital my sisters get to go every day maybe i just need to end my life so dad can live out the rest of his time on this earth in peace just pack and move the heck out you cant stay here i don't understand i leave of to a shelter keep my mouth shut and bang all my pants shirts phones are gone i have nothing and still mom said you have to go ok to farmersville Texas the is no way to get no were i cant drive cant pay for treatment even if i had money i will be cut off from any people i called friend no group talk no kiss my ass nothing just pack and we will take you to the place we have picked for you or you will have nothing no home to lay my head no doctors nothing so yes maybe that is what i need to do just kill my self and be done

tommymott
I'm not sure why killing ourselves seems to be the first thing we think of in stressful situations like yours. Maybe it's the easiest thing to think of but there are other and better options. You have so much going on and I appreciate trying to be strong but sometimes the best thing is to let go, be sad and feel helpless. Is there a clergy-person or counselor you can talk to? Sometimes our family means well but it can be hard to communicate with them. I'm sorry about your Dad and all the other mess. I hope you can find your own way through all of this.

deleted_user
I agree with tommymott. Don't let killing yourself be the first thought. Try to think out your situation. I am sorry about your dad. Just think what that would do to him.

deleted_user
I agreee with tommy on this,we all have been through the killing yourself phase.I hope that this will pass for you with a little help from your friends here.I to was a problem child and my parents played the tough love thing.This is what they do when there is no way out,they love you enough to want you to change.i've been in recovery for 15 yr.s now and it was the best thing I ever did.I have a family again and life is no bowl of cherry's but it could've turned out much worse.I lived on the streets eat from left overs from friend's befor it hit me.There is no place like home it's never to late toget the help you may need to get your life back.Big hugs..........
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