Its back again. I was most definitely manic so lowering my anti-depressant was a reasonable thing for pdoc to do. The problem is that 10 mgs of Prozac is not enough to stave off the depression. I could tell a difference the first day on the lower dose but today it was like a switch flipped in my brain. I ended up sleeping something like 13 hours and have been crying for hours for absolutely no reason. I was on 20 mgs before. Apparently they don't make 15 mg pills and they are capsules so you can't split them in half. Perhaps I could take 20 mgs with an increase in Seroquel. It was so nice to be happy and I was able to get tons of stuff done at work. Nevertheless, I was very obviously manic. Never in my life have I worn more than two rings. Right now I'm wearing four CZ rings with a total carat weight equivalent of probably 7-8 carats. How gaudy is that? I could go on at great length about all the other useless things I purchased (and did in my journal). I dramatically changed my hair. I almost quit my job (because I'm definitely brilliant enough to get one that pays much better). Obviously, a med change was in order. I have a call in now to pdoc. Hopefully, she'll let me go back up on the Prozac. It never ceases to amaze me how suddenly and dramatically my moods shift. Its just bizarre. I'm really bummed about being depressed again. It took months for me to come out of it last time. DH thought I was doing fantastic when I was manic but he hasn't seen the checking account yet. I could tell I was getting "strung out" from being on fast forward all the time. Oh well, such is the life of a beeper...
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