Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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The last few days I have just wanted everyone to leave me alone. I actually told my husband to leave my the f*ck alone. I mean it, but I don't. I know that as soon as I was alone I would be lonely and feel regretful that I sent everyone away.
It's like I want to runaway from everyone but I want the reassurance that they will desperately search for me and find me when I run from them (or send them away).
Does that make sense? Does anyone feel that way?
Is that the BP or borderline personality?
HELP!!
It's like I want to runaway from everyone but I want the reassurance that they will desperately search for me and find me when I run from them (or send them away).
Does that make sense? Does anyone feel that way?
Is that the BP or borderline personality?
HELP!!
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Later when more "rational" I think about:
But who would feed me? Pay my bills? I guess I could manage. Haven't been able to cook a real meal in about 6 years now and budgeting just my OWN money is difficult for the month. And think we who are on diability know its a joke to live on that and pay for everything including our reg doc, Pdoc, therapist, meds ( take 11 pills in the am, 6 @night) plus normal finances.
And who would hug me? And notice if I had eaten or remind me when I'm manic if I hadn't eaten? Forget that often when up for a month or two. Or buy me lbs of chocolate at the other end.
Then I think my husband could help pay and we could be friends and he could visit and I could live in the park near where he works a half hour away and he could be free otherwise of his burden of me.
Then remember all the times I've tried to get him out and free him and how angry he's become and the fact that he doesn't want to be free of me. One night not too long ago after a "shopping spell" he came in and gave me a hug and said "Dear, if there was ever anyone I wanted to save it would be someone as sweet as you". Not bad after $450.00 and locking the keys in my car. Not bragging, had been manic beyond usual to the point where it had hurt for days and got my check and was so embarassed at DBSA after locking my keys in and they knew how bad I was doing and he was so so nice to me. Do I deserve this? Part of me still says, you betcha, and another says does he deserve this.
Whoops. Super ramble. Just got off ebay and bid on another american girl doll. One of my worst passions. I feel guilty as usual.
Coping, I hope you see that others of us have the same issues. Right now I wish I was away so I don't have to look at him tomorrow and have to tell him I need him to pay with paypal again. Damn my typing fingers that are so quick to raise a bid.
But, I take full responsibility. No one forced me to do nothin
Thought all this was just my BP. Isn't running away and not wanting to be with anyone that? Not wanting to burden anyone or have them trigger me just BP?
GDSL093UJLGNN////...Tell me my suspicions of PSTD etc are all true...as well as thinking I have ADHD too... the symptoms sure have been there.
The difference in how I feel and what coping explains though is that she whats to send them all away -- then wants them to all come searching to find her. -- that's the reason I suggested it sounds more like Borderline in her case. Either way, if that is one of your dx, you'd do well to pick up a copy of the book I recommended. It'a small book, cheap and a quick read.
i feel like that a lot
arent BP's cute?