I am so angry that I want to go on a rampage and destroy everything in the house! I am so tired of this constant fucking struggle between good and evil going on in my mind. I'm just fucking sick of it- God and Satan. Neither of them will leave me alone! Well, I'm done with both of them. I'm done with hearing the demons. I'm done with this fucked up wasted life. I hate religion! I hate it! I hate spirituality! Spiritually, I am dead. I don't want anything to do with either of them. Neither of them are of any use to me anymore. If I am sentencing myself to hell, then so be it. I don't care anymore. I just can't go on fighting like this! Thanks to anyone who takes the time to read this. Peace.
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