My hubby is in the shower right now. I've been pacing around all nite since he got home. I'm bored, I'm frustrated, and I truly hate my life right now. I lost my job and this is the first time I've been without a job in 6 years. Plus we close on a house in less than two weeks. I don't know how we're going to manage. There's just so much pressure. So much. Everyone's telling me how strong I'm being, how well I'm coping. Reality is, I think about cutting every day. I want to take a bath and slit my wrists wide open and just let it flow. But I don't want to be more of a burden than I already am. The hubby doesn't need to come home to that. My mom wouldn't be able to handle it. I just don't know what to do. I'm just so frustrated. So sad. So angry. I just don't know what to do.
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