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Freak....

deleted_user
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I was really cycling last night.We went out to our usual haunts and I did have a few beers but I didn't tie one on or anything and now I am wondering WTF ? It was like I WAS drunk talking a mile a minute to everyone ,had all these grand ideas and was the life of the party.Now it is all gone and I am blah.I want my high back....NOW.LOL
I feel all negative and guilty (about what I do not know)and anxious but not high or manic.Does anyone else ever feel guilt or shame even for NO reason?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Oh yeah! Especially like the night you just described. It's so nice to get manic we jump at the chance to talk and describe our ideas and it's like we have to get it all out while we have the audience and the chance. You didn't do anything wrong. Think about it most everyone was probably buzzed anyway. When that happens to me most eople think I'm coked up and ask me for a line. Hey our highs come with a price but not money.
deleted_user
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It was the alcohol mixing with your meds. One drink for us, is like someone without meds having about 3. I was in las vegas years ago, talking a mile a minute, because of all the liquor I drank and a guy sweeping the floor at one of the casinos walked up to me and ask me where he could get some of what I had? I realized I was manicky and this guy thought I was high, I wasn't. Most of my friends and family know about my problems and at my request they will tell me when I'm acting out so I can get control of it.
deleted_user
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"Freak" seems a little harsh as does excessive guilt and shame. However, as a newly recovering alcoholic I would like to encourage you not to mix alcohol with your meds. No good can come of it.
dobiedots
dobiedots
Yes, a lot. But I thought that came from my years at Catholic School.
I push those toughts aside as I haven't done anything to deserve them.
Shelly4
Shelly4
I love wine and hate that I cant drink it. I know if I do, it can trigger a cycle for me, usually a depressed cycle. I am not sure your mood today is guilt but a reaction to the alcohol mixed with your meds. I get that way if I drink. The next day I am down. My body is trying to fight the effects of the alcohol and my meds. Try not to be so hard on yourself, we all slip once in a while. Hugs
deleted_user
deleted_user
I love a cold beer.Just for thirst.No substitute.

BUT

I tend to overdo the social aspects.As I only go out a couple of nights here and there.
Guilt and shame for NO reason ?
YUP
deleted_user
deleted_user
Yeah, that happens to me also, i keep playing it out in my head,like now what did i say? to her, to him? did they think i was weird, was i too flirtatious,,then a few days will go by,,and the girl does not call me,,then my thoughts get worse, I am now thinking the worst,,i was too forward,,ohh my gosh they think i am ,,Blah,, Blah....I get it!!!!!
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