Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I SO want to forget the bad stuff.
It was in hospital and after.Physical abuse and seizures.All due to the ineptitude of staff.
Racist orderlies.
I hardly mentioned it to family.A little to friends.More here.
Now I KNOW I should forget about it.I mentioned it to my psych and he wanted to dismiss it.It was 10yrs ago after all.Yet, it's in his interests to.I could see it in his face.Shit himself.Forget it.
It does concern his bosses after all.
I was too nuts and totally broken in the past to mention stuff.A court case during the illness taking root would have finished me.
The original hospital has gone.The files would take aeons to extract, if they are still there.It was the most traumatic and lowest point up to then , in my life.
I go a while without thinking about it but then it engulfs me and all around just disappears.I'm trying not to be too explicit.Yet, I don't want people thinking this was nothing either.It wasn't a standard initiation into mental illness.Not one I can accept as far as the sick nature of it goes.
So..how do you try and forget about the real bad things ?
It wasn't the illness then.It was the way I was treated.I don't want to reawaken ghosts.Just want to forget about it or at least not feel hurt by the memories.
How do you do this ?
Yr gonna say therapy ?
It was in hospital and after.Physical abuse and seizures.All due to the ineptitude of staff.
Racist orderlies.
I hardly mentioned it to family.A little to friends.More here.
Now I KNOW I should forget about it.I mentioned it to my psych and he wanted to dismiss it.It was 10yrs ago after all.Yet, it's in his interests to.I could see it in his face.Shit himself.Forget it.
It does concern his bosses after all.
I was too nuts and totally broken in the past to mention stuff.A court case during the illness taking root would have finished me.
The original hospital has gone.The files would take aeons to extract, if they are still there.It was the most traumatic and lowest point up to then , in my life.
I go a while without thinking about it but then it engulfs me and all around just disappears.I'm trying not to be too explicit.Yet, I don't want people thinking this was nothing either.It wasn't a standard initiation into mental illness.Not one I can accept as far as the sick nature of it goes.
So..how do you try and forget about the real bad things ?
It wasn't the illness then.It was the way I was treated.I don't want to reawaken ghosts.Just want to forget about it or at least not feel hurt by the memories.
How do you do this ?
Yr gonna say therapy ?
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
The way I cope is that I imagine it happened to someone else, someone I read about in a book. It works for me Pluck but your situation is very different.
I suppose talking about it does reawaken hurts. Maybe just accepting it happened and letting it go is best but easier said then done.
Suze xxx
That includes writing about it in your private journal? I usually fill journals with all sorts of pain and anger, which are followed by many cusswords that helps.
Then I talk about it here, and in my online DS journal and that helps for a moment too.
If you need to put bits and pieces of it on messages here. Kind of like putting the word, "The" in one message? Then "Bastards" in another???? ETC, "DIE, DIE!"
Just wondered why they keep springing up.
I told the psych that they must have caused the BP to be much worse.
Genetic, yes.But much more if you never expect such barbarism.
Yeah I do love music.This is an old track but I love it still.
Can we hunt them down and hurt them a little? It would make me feel better?
Is there some way, I don't know all of your issues that you could help others so they don't have to deal with this? That might help to fight for others to heal your hurts or am I nutz?
It's Don Henley..no..Glenn Frey..no...er..
I hope that helps...
Hugs Buggie