For the first time in a long time (if ever), I'm actually happy & proud to be myself. I don't wish to be any other person, i'm at a stage where I'm proud of myself, actually like myself-maybe even love myself. I can feel myself radiating & I know it shows. I can actually feel life now instead of doing things/going through life w/out feeling. I hope I can hang on to this forever . . . I know there will be trials/life thow's twists & turns, but I just hope I can get through them w/my head held up high. I don't want to think of the consenquences becuase I'm afraid of not succeeding, I'm afraid of going back into that big deep, dark whole that knows me so well. And I fear that if I go down that road again, I'll go a lot deeper & may not ever be able to get out & see the sun again. But for now, I'm not goign to think about that-I'm going to enjoy my radiating light & enjoy having it show off for all to see!!
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