For the first time in a long time (if ever), I'm actually happy & proud to be myself. I don't wish to be any other person, i'm at a stage where I'm proud of myself, actually like myself-maybe even love myself. I can feel myself radiating & I know it shows. I can actually feel life now instead of doing things/going through life w/out feeling. I hope I can hang on to this forever . . . I know there will be trials/life thow's twists & turns, but I just hope I can get through them w/my head held up high. I don't want to think of the consenquences becuase I'm afraid of not succeeding, I'm afraid of going back into that big deep, dark whole that knows me so well. And I fear that if I go down that road again, I'll go a lot deeper & may not ever be able to get out & see the sun again. But for now, I'm not goign to think about that-I'm going to enjoy my radiating light & enjoy having it show off for all to see!!
Posts You May Be Interested In
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...