Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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Maybe it's because I wasn't on my meds as prescribed for a couple of days. Maybe it's the way this month has started off...horribly. Whatever it is, I feel as thought I'm falling into a depressive state yet again. Usually, it's mania, then depression. This time, however, I haven't experienced the mania first.
I've been stable since leaving the hospital at the end of August. I went into the hospital a habitual self injurer whose self injury had gotten a bit too severe. I went in after being manic about three days, then taking an overdose of Ambien. I was up, down, up, and down...happy, sad, angry, sad, etc. It was a roller coaster ride without the fun and excitement.
Anyway, I was put on a pretty good combination of medication while there...the most helpful combo I've been on so far. Now, however, I have this feeling of sadness setting in, and even thoughts of cutting. I keep thinking I should go out and buy a new pack of double edged razors. I honestly thought I might continue to be okay for once, but now, it appears as though I'm beginning to spiral down. Does this mean the medication is no longer working? Even when the right med combo is found, do we normally still have episodes of mania and depression at times? Besides Bipolar I, I battle BPD, PTSD, OCD, and Panic Disorder. Perhaps this isn't my Bipolar acting up, then, which explains why my usual episode of mania didn't first take place? I dunno. UGGHHH!!!!!!
I see my psych nurse in the morning, and hopefully, my therapist(LCSW). I plan to talk to them about a few things. Actually, I need to make a note of these things before I forget. Going to do that now.
I've been stable since leaving the hospital at the end of August. I went into the hospital a habitual self injurer whose self injury had gotten a bit too severe. I went in after being manic about three days, then taking an overdose of Ambien. I was up, down, up, and down...happy, sad, angry, sad, etc. It was a roller coaster ride without the fun and excitement.
Anyway, I was put on a pretty good combination of medication while there...the most helpful combo I've been on so far. Now, however, I have this feeling of sadness setting in, and even thoughts of cutting. I keep thinking I should go out and buy a new pack of double edged razors. I honestly thought I might continue to be okay for once, but now, it appears as though I'm beginning to spiral down. Does this mean the medication is no longer working? Even when the right med combo is found, do we normally still have episodes of mania and depression at times? Besides Bipolar I, I battle BPD, PTSD, OCD, and Panic Disorder. Perhaps this isn't my Bipolar acting up, then, which explains why my usual episode of mania didn't first take place? I dunno. UGGHHH!!!!!!
I see my psych nurse in the morning, and hopefully, my therapist(LCSW). I plan to talk to them about a few things. Actually, I need to make a note of these things before I forget. Going to do that now.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
my heart and mind are on the same road as you maybe if we walk it together it wont be so scary
well, my nurse practitioner told me she didn't think you could overdose on Ambien. when i got to the hospital and told the lady how many i had taken, however, she immediately called for an ambulance, and once in the ER, the doc made me do the whole charcoal thing while saline was being run through me constantly. SOO i dunno! i took a month supply, but i honestly think i would have been just fine. i was hell bent on having some whiskey with the pills, and that probably would have killed me for sure. but anyway, i'm not sure what the answer to that question is. i'm gonna look into it here online, though, and see if i can find an answer.
What happens if I overdose?
Seek emergency medical attention if you think you have used too much of this medicine. An overdose of Ambien can be fatal when it is taken together with other medications that can cause drowsiness.
Symptoms of a Ambien overdose may include sleepiness, confusion, shallow breathing, feeling light-headed, fainting, or coma.
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So yeah, I guess overdose is possible and deadly, but from the sound of it, only deadly if mixed with other sedating medications. Alcohol would definitely make it a deadly combo, I think.
I know this is totally STUPID, but it kind of pisses me off to now find out that my overdose wasn't serious...deadly, I mean. It's like, I didn't do it right! Oh fcking well!