Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
i guess i'm just reaching out for a little support.
a lot of ppl on this board say i make them laugh or that i am a lot of fun, and there are also several people who seem to rely on my support on a near-daily basis. which is FINE. i love helping people, i do.
sometimes it is hard for me to ask for help though.
i have been fighting some suicidal thoughts, fighting them hard, all day. right now i'm gonna drift off to sleep soon and hope i wake up feeling better.
sometimes i just get so tired. i am just so tired of all this, the fight, the struggle, the insane battle of keeping up with my illness and staying on top of it and trying to be well. i don't want to hurt the ppl i love but i do think the world might be better off without me.
i do know who to call, how to "stay safe," etc. i'm just saying what i feel. i feel a lot of pain lately.
a lot of ppl on this board say i make them laugh or that i am a lot of fun, and there are also several people who seem to rely on my support on a near-daily basis. which is FINE. i love helping people, i do.
sometimes it is hard for me to ask for help though.
i have been fighting some suicidal thoughts, fighting them hard, all day. right now i'm gonna drift off to sleep soon and hope i wake up feeling better.
sometimes i just get so tired. i am just so tired of all this, the fight, the struggle, the insane battle of keeping up with my illness and staying on top of it and trying to be well. i don't want to hurt the ppl i love but i do think the world might be better off without me.
i do know who to call, how to "stay safe," etc. i'm just saying what i feel. i feel a lot of pain lately.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
mtpockets was right.
I bet you will feel better in the morning!
It's hard to fight...but it will pass...:)
the meds have made an overall improvement.
it just seems nothing can stop me from becoming suicidal when i do.
I hope I helped, even a little :)
hang in there!
lou ... thanks ... yeah, it does help me to think of the impact. it would absolutely crush my parents.
also it helps to think of the stuff i don't want to miss out on. the chance that maybe someday my life will be really amazingly good.
You do normally lift people up, and you were right to expect us to respond tonight. You are right in expecting support from us tonight.
I am sorry this community failed you.
I want you to feel better. But until then, remember the people you love, they would be hurt to not have you around. And we would miss you too.