I just wanted to reach out and connect to someone. Today is my second day off work this week (after being off all last week). I'm going to call my boss this afternoon and ask about FMLA. I'm not really looking forward to that. She's very understanding but things are really rough for me right now. Also, DH is not being very supportive. First, he tells me if I would just exercise then I would feel better so I exercised regularly for two weeks. I did feel a little better for a while but then the depression came back. He says "well, you can't just exercise for 45 minutes a day and expect it to help". Just how long do I have to exercise before I'm cured. Its either that or "If you'd just think positive you'd feel better instead of sitting around sulking all the time." Argh! I don't like sitting around sulking but I'm *depressed* for crying out loud. Maybe you should eat better he says. He's really starting to annoy me. He's going with me to my next therapy appt but I'm not sure how much good it will do since he seems to be of the opinion that all tdocs are quacks. I'm really trying hard to help myself. I don't exercise every day but I'm getting back into a routine. I'm watching what I eat. I'm taking vitamins. I'm trying to sleep regularly. I've started back into therapy. I'm going to AA meetings. What more can I do? I'm trying to avoid stress. Right now our big stress is money so he reluctantly agreed to take care of the bills. He says "just don't worry about them they can wait until I get back from my business trip". Yesterday they turned off the phone and I had to call and pay the bill. He's *not* taking care of things and that makes me worry even more. I feel like I just can't deal with everyday life. MIL is staying with me for the next couple days but my mom just had surgery and can't watch the kids this weekend. My husband won't be home until late on Sunday. Anyhow, I guess I'm feeling a little sorry for myself. Thanks for listening everyone.
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