I am feeling down and just kind of stuck. I just have this constant aching feeling in my heart. I don't know what it is and it just sort of crept up on me, because this morning I was feeling kind of okay. I always have this nagging feeling that I should be doing something and when I'm at work it's even worse, because I have a desk job and it's pretty boring. I work for my stepdad, so he is pretty flexable about my hours, but I just don't know what the problem is. I feel like I'm melting inside sometimes. I have been having pretty good days for the most part. I have a cycle of depression at least once a week though. Then I have all this crazy energy for a few days. I know it will pass, but I want to find a way to make it pass faster. When I feel like this I can say it will pass all I want, but it just seems to get deeper and deeper. I guess I just wanted to vent a little and have no real question. Poor me wah, wah, wah, let's call a wahmbulance. I have a doc appt. tomorrow, so we will see, but you know how sometimes you just won't make it until tomorrow? I don't know, just feeling really down.
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