Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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deleted_user 12/03/2007

So I have been on lamictal for 7 weeks now and I have to say that I am feeling Better. Not 100%, but better.
I feel like the cloud is lifting and now I am just seeing things in a different light. I was wondering if anyone else experienced that. Like I have realized how shitty my husband treated me in the past and now, yes he is a fantastic husband and the BEST dad, but today I want to dump his ass for crap he did 7 years ago. Then I love him then I want to dump his ass...
Over the years of mental abuse that I got from him (not anymore) I am now saying HOW THE HELL did I stay and am just pissed. I wanted to talk so he does not call me and I tell him to go to hell for no reason and him not know what the hell happened, so I thought I would talk here first.
Does anyone else flip flop with feeling towards their loved ones. Its so dam annoying. I am wondering if this will still continue the rest of my life, just flip flopping between feelings for people. Uggg.......
I am going for a walk. I think the air will clear my head.
Ill read when I get back
THanks for any advice anyone may give me.
Angie

beckyp 12/03/2007

Do you have a tdoc? Mine helped me a lot with past anger over emotional and verbal abuse.

deleted_user 12/03/2007

Yes,,i do that all the time,,i hate it,,i really do not know how i feel...i cried with my fiance because i told him,,how do i know i love you?,,because last month,,i hated his guts,,for the past also..i go back n forth,,,thats why were not married yet,,,i get sooooo confused...right now,,,i Love him,,,and told him this morning i want to get married,,,hes already bought me 2 wedding rings!!

deleted_user 12/03/2007

i am always blowing hot and cold with my partner..not just my partner but with friends and family aswell..sometimes i want to ignore the door and sometimes i want a full house..i don't know wether this will continue for you but for me it is always there although sometimes it does EASE...chin up though

deleted_user 12/03/2007

Actually, when I'm off my meds. I'm like Jeckyl and Hyde. The mean, nasty I hate everyone person appears and no one can do anything to make me happy. I'm paranoid and suspicious of everyone, including people that call on the phone. Its miserable, and I make everyone miserable around me. I much prefer staying on my meds and being happier.

deleted_user 12/03/2007

Me too,,,i do the same with my family...i have read every self help book available, and went to every,,anger,,workshop,,,weekends,,,i have taken herbs,,ect,,,its the same,,,,i thought it was a gemini thing for years,,,yet now i know its not...is it a BP thing!?

deleted_user 12/03/2007

funny you should say that im on the cusp of taurus and gemini

deleted_user 12/03/2007

mmm...maybe thats our problem!! LOL..

deleted_user 12/03/2007

Nah..I'm Pisces and I still do that. My bf doesn't do anything to make me feel less love for him and it still happens. Now I can recognize it and let him know i feel disconnected. Damn BPD!

dancingd 12/03/2007

I didn't have a shitty husband...just one who ignored me....I stayed in bed for a year...and it never occured to him something might be wrong(after years of Hypomania!)
Our family cousuler said he was disappointed in the seemimingly lack of husb interest in my depression(this was our pastor speaking)...now,I'm in the middle of a divorce,after 24 yrs..feel lonely afraid..but I know I'll be better by myself...being left alone in your sickness is worse,than laying in bed feeling abandoned.

deleted_user 12/03/2007

Thank you guys. I am stil learning what BP and what isn't. he was NOT a good hubby in the past and now if wonderful. I think even if he was wonderful in the past, Id still feel the same. Its been 7 years so I need to just realize what is going on in my mind today.
THANKS!

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