I feel so worthless today...have made the same mistake over and over again...just cannot get away from a certain person...not sure why, but he just keeps coming around and i just keep letting him...i have no willpower what so ever...i am weak..and pathetic...i had all these things i was gonna do while my kids were gone and they will be home saturday...what have i accomplished? JACK SHIT... oh, yeah, i did have their family dog put down.. i am in love with somone and i am not sure if he loves me or not..he is so wrapped up in his own problems...he would be so much better off without me...so would the whole FUCKING WORLD...why does life have to be so damn hard and unfair??????????? i try to be a good mother, a good nurse, i love and take care of people for a living...but i just keep getting shit on...why can't someoe take care of me for a chance.... ok, i will try and quit whining for now...
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