my out of state family knows nothing of my bp. the last time i saw them ..about 5 years ago ..i was unmedicated and bouncing off the walls.. happy go lucky all the time and completely fun and loveable. now today i am a completely different person .. dull..quiet and reserved.. just nothing like i was when i last saw any of them. now i have been asked to come for a visit and im so scared of them seeing me the way i am... they will immediately wonder what is wrong with me and i have no idea how to begin to tell them everything that has happened to me between the last time i saw them and now and explain where the old me went and why i am the me i am today. my question is how do i tell someone who will never understand? im terrified.
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