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Failed Job Interview

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Needless to say things went bad. I could tell by the interviewers demeanor and body language that everything was going down in flames. She didn't even really interview me, after the typical questions like "What drugs have you done" and "Have you ever been arrested" she pretty much showed me the door. Meanwhile all the other applicants were still inside getting their interviews.

Let's see, I have no:

1) Job
2) Money
3) Partner
4) Place of my own

Meanwhile my younger brother could check yes next to all of the above things. How pathetic is that...

Whenever someone here contemplates suicide I try to be one of the first ones to talk them out of it, but honestly right now it doesn't look like such a bad idea. I fucking hate life. I hate it so bad right now I can taste it's shitty flavor on my tongue. Cracking open a 12 pack of Miller, with luck I won't remember any of this even happened by tomrorrow.
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Word - I feel the same except I didn't go to a job interview because I don't feel like I can even try to work.

I have the same "jealousy" of my brother - he's got family, job, home... I have nothing. I know if I go get a job it will last 3 months maybe a year if I'm incredibly lucky. I have no motivation. Hopefully that nasty beer will wipe the shit taste of life off your tongue. =P
dancingd
dancingd
Sorry to heatr that Calus.I often wonder what I would do if I lost my little job that I have.
Oh ,I'm talented,work hard,intellegent...then BAM..a BP moment ,and it all goes down the toilet!

Keep trying.....

And the beer ,although may make you feel better for awhile(numb to it all)....is not such a good idea.
BP and booze,even beer(espaecialy if you are on meds)don't mix too well.

But you are a big guy....no lectures from me..I've done my share of NUMBING too.

Take care
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Calus, do not let life get you this down! There is so much more out there besides money. It sounds like you really need to have someone to talk your thoughts out to. If you are genuinely feeling suicidal, phone Call 1-800-SUICIDE. Get yourself some help sweetie, just remember "this too shall pass."
deleted_user
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yeah man, dont do anything rash! Things will look up for you... They did for me. Ive been out of work for around 7 months.. Ready to blow the ole head off and drank myself into oblivion "felt like sh*t after the drunk fest" then was really going to blow it all away!! then I called that help line 800-suicide many times. they helped me through it... my ativan didnt hurt either.lol So dont sell yourself short you have alot to live for!!! You have us!!! and I too have to say that your meds and beer dont wash good together. That is another thing I have learned recently.. Keep it cool man!! Peace Out!!!
deleted_user
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yeah man, dont do anything rash! Things will look up for you... They did for me. Ive been out of work for around 7 months.. Ready to blow the ole head off and drank myself into oblivion "felt like sh*t after the drunk fest" then was really going to blow it all away!! then I called that help line 800-suicide many times. they helped me through it... my ativan didnt hurt either.lol So dont sell yourself short you have alot to live for!!! You have us!!! and I too have to say that your meds and beer dont wash good together. That is another thing I have learned recently.. Keep it cool man!! Peace Out!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
yeah man, dont do anything rash! Things will look up for you... They did for me. Ive been out of work for around 7 months.. Ready to blow the ole head off and drank myself into oblivion "felt like sh*t after the drunk fest" then was really going to blow it all away!! then I called that help line 800-suicide many times. they helped me through it... my ativan didnt hurt either.lol So dont sell yourself short you have alot to live for!!! You have us!!! and I too have to say that your meds and beer dont wash good together. That is another thing I have learned recently.. Keep it cool man!! Peace Out!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
yeah man, dont do anything rash! Things will look up for you... They did for me. Ive been out of work for around 7 months.. Ready to blow the ole head off and drank myself into oblivion "felt like sh*t after the drunk fest" then was really going to blow it all away!! then I called that help line 800-suicide many times. they helped me through it... my ativan didnt hurt either.lol So dont sell yourself short you have alot to live for!!! You have us!!! and I too have to say that your meds and beer dont wash good together. That is another thing I have learned recently.. Keep it cool man!! Peace Out!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
yeah man, dont do anything rash! Things will look up for you... They did for me. Ive been out of work for around 7 months.. Ready to blow the ole head off and drank myself into oblivion "felt like sh*t after the drunk fest" then was really going to blow it all away!! then I called that help line 800-suicide many times. they helped me through it... my ativan didnt hurt either.lol So dont sell yourself short you have alot to live for!!! You have us!!! and I too have to say that your meds and beer dont wash good together. That is another thing I have learned recently.. Keep it cool man!! Peace Out!!!
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" oooppps!!!" sorry about that!
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Calus ,I've got a pretty good job right now and Im pretty happy about it......but it took lots of interviews and disappointments before I got to that point.

I totally undestand about wanting to end it....Ive been there too. I know you still have dreams and passion if your so disappinted about the interview.That equates to wanting life.Listen to that part of your heart.

When Im drinking and in the zone your in, Im very dangerous and self destructive....perhaps you could be with a friend tonight? Call someone?
Be safe....take care...we're all here for you.
deleted_user
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I've had terrible job interviews too, and left feeling totally worthless. But there are also services, at least where i am, provided to people with mental illnesses... and they can help you practice interviews so that you learn what to say about past issues, like drug use,etc. ... and to address those questions with confidence.

This is a bad slump... but hope you can see it as a temporary one...
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Oh no, that sucks! But just remember this is one job, your depression is kicking in & skewing your perspective here. You're NOT a loser! Look at all you HAVE accomplished. You're smart, you're a Marine, you're a good brother, friend, etc. I'm sure there's a lot more you could add to that list. Depression is a bastard & it's just trying to kick you while you're down, it doesn't play fair. Don't isolate right now, trust me you will feel better if you don't let this brew. There will be plenty more opportunities for you, really there will. The last job interview I went on I had a panic attack, hyperventilated & passed out! Yep, I felt like a loser & I didn't get the job either, but I actually went back to school & got a better one (with no interview required!)
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Don't give up! Try for SDI/SSI. Medicare can help. Go to your local social services, they were nice to me. This world needs us different people. Without wild ones it'd be a boring place to live. We love ya!
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Next time try to hype yourself up prior to the interview. Employers lie to you all the time, like say they will call you and never do. So don't treat it like a confessional about you.

Resumes are mostly lies, when trying to win their hearts at the interview lying is also neccessary. Just don't lie about education and past jobs.

You can omit some of your past jobs though.
sjdaud
sjdaud
What drugs have you done is not a question that they can ask.

Before going on another interview, get with an ADA counselor and go through some interviews. They always try to ask things that they cannot ask.

If they ask those questions, (that they should not), then you probably don't want to work there anyway.

Temporary jobs are the easier way to re-enter the workplace till you find a good job match.
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