I never seem to feel it passing. I am not even angry about it. I'm settleing, giving in. I'm tired of fighting and tired of going up and down. I don't know how to do it anymore. I try to pretend everything is fine and I have to do that for the most part. My family should not have to endure my constant mood swings. But, I withdraw then and feel so alone. I have not posted in a while because I feel like it's pointless. What is anyone here really able to do? What can we actually do except say "I here you" and "please feel better soon" and my favorite, "This will pass", well it's not friggin' passing, it rests, lays dormant for a bit and then slams me again.
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