Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I think sometimes when the wind blows when I don't want it to that it is a force that is pissed off at me. Laughing as it blows harder. I hate it when I plan something and it is ruined by the weather. Sometimes I feel like If I fight with the force long enough or speak nicley to it I can make it change the weather. Anyone else?
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Some crazy person is telling people on this website that I killed myself. I am, in fact, doing quite well, in case anyone knows me from before and was worried.Xoxo Halter
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
Sometimes I feel that way, but not in a weather-related way!!! Just feel an evil undercurrent all around me!!!!
And Orb the correct term is not sociopath, it is dissocial personality disorder.
to answer the original post ... i do feel forces sometimes. i think sometimes they are real.
sometimes i know it's my paranoia & mania though too.
sometimes the force runs straight thru my body and i can't hold still. that's the worst kinda mania.
1. When manic or depressed I get frustrated when things don't go my way only to realize that prior to that my state of mind set into motion the chain of events that ultimately pissed me off.
2. When I was about 10, it began raining heavily out of no where. I then yelled at the sky "Hail" and it began hailing within seconds. Coinsidence? Most likely.
3. Watch the movie "What the bleep do we know?" It is layperson friendly, yet talks about the interaction between quantum physics and and human experience, i.e. the observer affects the outcome of reality simply by witnessing the event.
4. Check out "The Elegant Universe" on pbs.org. It's free and very captivating for a a "pbs" show, not to mention a program about string theory. String theory is all about our human experience here (my opinion). And I think BP's are the most capable of appreciating that.
orb - i thought i was your favourite, feel jelaous now...lol...keep proving my theories on your kind
misfittoy - i think when we're hypo/manic, we have access to deeper parts of our mind, there's a lot of background processing going on there that we're normally not aware of, that's why we can normally react to situations before we have time to think about them. in the case of feeling objects across the room, that would be a part of that background mind that is analysing the objects around us in detail. the psychotic element comes into it when we start seeing these processes as representing reality. again using the same example, it would be normal for the brain to simulate the texture etc of an object internally but if you confuse that with actually feeling the object than that'd be getting lost in your mind...i.e. the diff between having a halucination and believing it to be real...anyway, rambling now, hope it makes some sense ;)
neurotica - not a good idea to form a worldview on theories resting on unstable assumptions, anyway, still waiting for the full theory :)
I used to blame myself...now I blame Halterbroke. (whew)
That said, I too succumb to the selfishness that is being human.
The cloud of depression knows no sun, is self-perpetuating, and breeds fickle children.