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Endless Hopeless Bleak Despair

Halterbroke
Halterbroke
To fall into this place is not unfamiliar and yet it hurts so much every single time.

I have to go home tomorrow, to my shit life, with my miserable husband in my nasty house, in my lonely corner. I don't arrive until Tuesday. The drive is endless.

My friend Kate is about to deliver her fourth child. Joyous news, but it makes me so sad.

Time passes. I get better I guess, but really, only Older. So much love to give and no one to give it to.

I will be the old childless lady in the creepy house with 30 cats who collects dolls.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I hope not. Cat poop stinks...lol. Seriously, though...try to remain positive and keep your head up. You never know, it might not be so bad this time. Hope it works out for you.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am on the verge of crash also. I've been putting it off with prozac, but the prozac is not quite up to the job.
Listen, you can have everything, or what looks like everything and still crash! I have a good husband, a beautiful house, lots of pet parrots. My grown kids are a pain, but I'm probably in good company there!
Point is no matter how much is going right that brain chemistry still makes me crash.
God, I feel it coming. I am trying so hard to push it back, it's still coming!
deleted_user
deleted_user
((((((((((HalterBroke))))))))))
Naw you won't be alone - you're too fun and beautiful. Some goofball will fall head over heels for you one day - hopefully a younger man that you can mold into your very own cabana boy! (Partially my story!) LOL!!!
Wish we could be there with you on your drive home. Just know I'm thinking of you my friend!!!
tommymott
tommymott
Cats and dolls sounds like a fairly good life to me, although I have neither. But then I don't know anything that's endless or hopeless. Bleak maybe, but that's just to balance out the happiness. Maybe you just need to pick up some more positive adjectives. That's good for the short term because we all know that if we don't make decisions then life has a way of making decisions for us. I'd rather make my own!
deleted_user
deleted_user
I love dolls. And cats are better than most men imo.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I wish I could just wrap my arms around you and hold you until you didn't need anyone to hold you anymore...my heart and my love goes out to you dearest. Please find that glimmer of strength that is hidden somewhere deep inside of you. And when you find it, hold it in your hands and let it grow, letting nothing blow out it's light or it's warmth, for it will grow...and when it does so shall you.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hey hon, I`ve already christened my self "mad cat lady" and got 4 now and a dog..They are my substitute babies..It hurts alot to think about the future - DONT DO IT!! - I have to stop myself thinking about it..just hoping that something might turn up in the meantime??...Who really knows...X
Halterbroke
Halterbroke
You guys continue to astonish me with your boundless love and sweetness. Yes, Tommy, I suppose I do need more positive adjectives. Unfortunately all I can think of right now is the Bumblebee Tuna jingle.

At least my horse is waiting for me?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Don't be so hard on yourself. After my divorce from my first wife I never though I would get married again. But it did happen and I've been married to a woman who loves me even though I have bp. Never give up. Thomas Edison failed ten thosand times before finding the solution to the lightbulb. Your day will come.Good luck.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Thats ok halter..... I'm gonna be the old man with no teeth hitting on 20 yr olds while wearing depends and smelling like week old urine....

It's all good, I'll come visit
Halterbroke
Halterbroke
Hey! Life is already getting better! I've got a Gentleman Caller. Move the cat before you sit, sweetie. And the other cat. Want some liquor in your tea?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Depends....


no not on the liquor, I have to change into a new diaper....
*spits out dentures*

ready for a good gumming?
deleted_user
deleted_user
awwww c'mon now halt....we love ya....do ya really have a caller? just wonderin...
Halterbroke
Halterbroke
Oooh, a sparky one! Let me loosen my girdle, honey.
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