Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I sent this out to the people on my friends list and a couple of people suggested I post it here as many people can identify.
I received a flyer in the mail today that asked "Are you at risk for Endometrial Cancer"? At first glance I read it as Emotional Cancer. That is when I realized I have Emotional Cancer. I know that it is not literally cancer but it might as well be because it is killing me ever so slowly.
My emotions eat away at my sense of worth, being and health. They do not respond well to treatment as they have a strong nuclear center. Those emotions are embedded deep within and cause extreme pain.
When I am in my most extreme emotional pain as I am right now is when death becomes my best friend. He always has time for me. He brings me comfort. He never rejects or betrays me. He listens to my rants and most importantly he promises to take away all my pain if I would just let him.
The death of my mother has brought on an intensity of emotion I didn't realize would happen. As a matter of fact, I have always thought when she died so would all the anger and hurt that I carry because of her. Boy was I wrong.
My therapist is well aware of how I am feeling and I am not suicidal just hurting.
I received a flyer in the mail today that asked "Are you at risk for Endometrial Cancer"? At first glance I read it as Emotional Cancer. That is when I realized I have Emotional Cancer. I know that it is not literally cancer but it might as well be because it is killing me ever so slowly.
My emotions eat away at my sense of worth, being and health. They do not respond well to treatment as they have a strong nuclear center. Those emotions are embedded deep within and cause extreme pain.
When I am in my most extreme emotional pain as I am right now is when death becomes my best friend. He always has time for me. He brings me comfort. He never rejects or betrays me. He listens to my rants and most importantly he promises to take away all my pain if I would just let him.
The death of my mother has brought on an intensity of emotion I didn't realize would happen. As a matter of fact, I have always thought when she died so would all the anger and hurt that I carry because of her. Boy was I wrong.
My therapist is well aware of how I am feeling and I am not suicidal just hurting.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
Bipolar is WORSE