I feel like a freak writing this, but I am in a very, very bad place. For the past two days, my mood has plummeted. I've spent most of the days sleeping. I can't even motivate myself to shower or eat. This morning I feel terribly panicky and I've nowhere to turn. My husband is at work. I really don't know if I can hold on. I feel like I'm losing everything. I stopped taking my meds -- stupid, I know, but I'm just so angry that they're not making a difference. I have a tdoc appointment today, but even that doesn't seem to help and, besides, I don't think I can leave the house on my own. I just want this to end.
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