Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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I was just reading over some of the many emails I wrote to people when I was manic and it is so emabarassing the things that I was saying. I was so open about all my deepest darkest secrets. I was also very religious...telling people who weren't religious to pray to mary and save themselves. Just wondering how do you make up for the stupid things you did when you were manic? Do you apologize to the people you hurt? Never see them again? What do you do? I am so afraid these people will never want to talk to me, especailly my old basketball coach. I literally told her that if she wanted to get pregnant that she needed to pray to Mary. Reading over these emails makes me want to ram my head into the wall!!! Why was I acting so stupid? please help me...
deleted_user
deleted_user
oh yeah I get embarassed over what I do when I am sick. It is a terrible guilt.
deleted_user
deleted_user
We are all medicated and rarely remember it in a few hours let alone a few days:)
Don't worry about it.
deleted_user
deleted_user
just apologize and try to explain
deleted_user
deleted_user
I remember all of it lindel and my being medicated has nothing to do with it. It is a real emotional pain to think of what you put other people through.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I just say ..look.. I was ill.
However... there's some stuff I meant.
I just ask my friends etc.. to bear with me till the Second Coming.

Then we all go out and get drunk and stuff.
deleted_user
deleted_user
When we are that wacked people kind of sense somethings wrong with us. I have had it happen to me in reverse and after words I was like someone needs thier meds or have another drink. Really didn't think about much after the fact. Heck we are sick people all this self loathing and self damnation is very harmful to BP'S Send us right into a low. It's not neccessary give yourself a break.
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Dont worry about it here. Luckly ur surrounded by Beepers, I think we all undestand bt if u want to make it up to us u can bake cookies
deleted_user
deleted_user
thanks for the support! its so hard to forgive myself!! ahhhh...
deleted_user
deleted_user
yeah it can be hard but remember that it is all in the past and you can't change that. Don't beat yourself up over it. You were sick and your real friends will understand that if they are meant to come back to you.
beckyp
beckyp
If you have done something to hurt someone it is best to apologize and I would try to explain why you did it. This helps you get that crap off your mind.
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I disagree. Don't keep it going in your head not safe or healthy. If you get the cold schoulder from anyone then ask if you offended them and then sorry. Let it go and be happy you are fine!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Totally relate...said some outrageous stuff one-time...yeah, come clean, make light of it..don't beat yourself up x
nickpc20001
nickpc20001
I can relate I told my good friend and my X some very horriable things and didn't even mean them. I apologized and let them know that I was diagnoised bipolar, but who knows if they understand everything.
--Nick
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