Fuck my life. Just got the email equivalent of "its not you its me" from my therapist. She reccomended I seek out DBT resources in the community because she doesn't feel we are making any progress and our sessions seem to be "triggering" to me.
Like what the fuck. Logically I understand she is encouraging me to find a better fit that may, in the long run, help me more.
But emotionally I feel...
Angry. Like I REALLY need someone to talk to about all this shit thats in my head, and I have been trying to hold on till our session on Wednesday. And now...no session. No support. I've got so seek out resources that my insurance most likely won't cover.
Great. Wonderful. Never been dumped by a therapist before.
What a wonderful, validating feeling. Not like I haven't spent the last week balling my eyes out with grief over my deceased kidney donor or anything...
I really don't understand myself sometimes. I go from perfectly fine and laughing to feeling like a complete failure. Even though I know that having to have multiple sessions for a tattoo, sleeping through an interveiw, and being behind in some classes, really isn't that deep. But it just keeps swirling around into this gross mess of thoughts. I know people have their limitations, but I can't...
A little indecisive...they were all too cute and I couldn't pick just one! So Happy Friday guys and I hope its a lovely day for you!!!!