I know I have angered a lot of people here, and because of that, I have decided to leave. Sorry if this makes no sense or my vocabulary is horrible, but I still can't see straight (let alone walk straight) b/c of my overdose a few days ago. I can't even drive anymore....how horrible is that?!?! Anyway, I admit that my behavior was less than becoming. My dad is looking into getting me into an inpatient trauma unit in DC. The suicidal behavior never ends and I know that if something doesn't happen soon I'll end up dead. Its only a matter of time before I find my pills or the gun. But I digress. I know I have been horrible to a lot of people here on the boards, and I have tried to apologize to them, but they have me on ignore, so they don't see my apologies. I'm going to close this account and make another one where I can get help for my SA and PTSD issues among others, since I am not welcome here due to the fact that I am not bp1 or bp2, but rather bp nos. I know I don't belong here, that is painfully clear, as I have been de-friended by people who think I am not worthy of being here due to my Dx. Anyway, my point in this whole thread was to apologize to anyone I've hurt, and to say that I won't be around to hurt anyone anymore. I thought this was a place where I could get support, but because of my behavior I know that is no longer true. I wish you all the best.
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