Not judging you. Just wondering if you've thought about NA? Unless maybe you aren't ready to give it up? I know you can't see pdoc until end of Nov. and maybe this is how you're surviving?

With any addiction if you give something up you have to have something to fill the void. You need a good support group who can understand what you'll be going through. You have to have a commitment to your life and your self and you have to have a willingness to go through hell to get to the healing on the other side. Get help, life is too hard to do on your own! Good luck and god bless!

That's probably not a bad idea. But, considering how hard it was to start seeing a therapist to begin with, I am not ready to go there yet. I waited until I was 33 (current age) to see a therapist, and consequently a pysch.
Honestly, I feel very apprehensive about such an endeavor.
Are you BP? Any drug excursions? I am looking for someone that can relate, make me feel less isolated, and possibly give me some advice.

Yeah, sometimes we have to hit bottom before we're ready to get the help we need. Actually I thank God I can't relate because I have an addictive personality (as do many BPs).
I am curious if there are BP drug users that can relate and how they are dealing.

i aolways have soime sort of drug in my system.....god if i got onto coke i wouldnt return im sure......i have BP and speed and ecstacy was my fun... i havent had drugs for a while because i changed my number and everything when i went into rehab for the first time.... i dint think my love of drugs will ever die. i just take em for the moment but i reckon if anyone came into my life that entailed em id be there in a hartbat so i have to be vigilant.....but by no meens does that meen i dont wanna just break out and fuck everyone and what they say leave me alone shit

Pot has a lot of theraputic properties, some negative. But LSD changed my life! My eyes were opened to the reality that surrounds us. It influenced me to go back to college and major in Physics (weird). Never, in my wildest dreams, did I ever want to nor imagine that I would get involved with coke. Trust me when I say "Stay away" if it ever crosses your path.

My poison of choice was alcohol and xanax. Pretty lightweight in comparison to cocaine but, nevertheless, really messed me up and had a killer withdrawal. You say you need encouragement. My encouragement would be to take a hard look at what you want out of life and decide if you want to stop. If you do then post to that effect and resources and suggestions will overflow.

Alcohol is what triggers my urge for coke. Duh, stop drinking. I know. I haven't started taking meds yet. I can't get in to the doc until Nov. 28th. Do mood stabilizing drugs help decrease impulsiveness that might lead to caving into temptation?

I developed a huge coke problem while I was living in the UK I mainly did Pot, Ecstacy and speed here in Oz because the coke was expensive and not very pure. I can relate to your impulsiveness. You really have to WANT to give it up, I gave it up because I had a few too many nose bleeds and was paranoid I was going to end up with a mononostril. Im on mood stablizers and don't feel the urge to even smoke pot. The addiction is a problem but can be overcome with support and willpower. Best of luck to you. :))

My thing was drink but that was a symptom a manifestation of deeper things. I used it as a med a crutch and a mood changer as shy low self esteem but in drink ah Mr Hyde was fun. Wish you a million hopes and good thoughts. Seek the reason and dont say what I said to my therapist when he asked me why I drank Cos I like it!! He was unimpressed. Really really hope you beat this sending all I can too you.

I have found the mood stabilising drugs to be a huge help in releasing me from my habits, I used alcohol when young and had a ounce of pot habit a f/n in the past. Last year I started using pot in a huge way if I had been around other drugs I am sure I would have used them to. I was manic and out of control. Pot helped me wind down. Relax, sleep, eat. I was having nearly an ounce a week by that stage. I got diagnosed as bipolar and then put on meds. I was warned that using and taking the meds could really create phsychosis and other probs. I have a six year old and recognised his need to have a stable mother. So the meds, therapy, have dulled my need for pot. I havnt used since last year.

I dont know what to say about your particular situation but it is true BP's have a tendency to addiction. According to my doc anyway. I suppose all I can say to you is that the meds will help, but you need to want to quit the drugs to be successful. Thats what I found anyway.

I hope this helps somehow.

I think it helped me when I addressed what the drugs were for in the first place.Getting stoned for what reason ? What's addictive is the feeling they gave you and also the escape from a particular uncomfort in your life.
It's Hide and seek with yr own self.Sidestepping issues.
Or making you feel more stronger and powerful than you actually are.
So many plans I heard people make at powder parties that never really even started !
I wasn't seen as an addict and I wasn't.I was ust working in a place where it's the norm to smoke, do a few E's and speed.Coke wasn't so big then.Never was my thing.

The extremes I experienced in BP have made it easy to say no to drugs.If I do partake I know I'll never reach the highs or lows as with BP.I tried coke once in BP.Nah.....plus it drains you of energy in a different low.

I can't really reminisce with too much glowing nostalgia cos I am a different ME compared to then.

I miss one thing..the smell of the cannabis.

You've probably heard the "change your play pens and your play mates". But it does help. Don't hang with partiers, and don't hang out at party places. Makes it difficult when your family parties, tho.

I was addicted to drugs and alcohol when I was younger. It's a BP thing to be addicted. I still use pot for my anxiety and depression, but not that much. You probably should start a recovery program AFTER you start on meds. Right now you're just self-medicating. If you need to talk about it, I'm hear. peace, t

Neurotica... I am not going to tell you what you want to hear, nor am I going to worry about your feelings. In essence you will probably look at me a some sort of neurotic, psychotic, mental case. And to be honest I am. But I am also clean and sober since 1990 with the same drugs as yours as my drug of choice, including many others too.

First truth I will tell you is that nothing I say or do is going to help you get or stay sober if you really have no intentions on getting sober!

Two is if you have true intentions on getting and staying sober then you must first get sober.

Three if you are a true addict which I believe you are you know what to do to get sober you just don't want to do it.

I am so good at being an asshole.