Today has been yet another hard day, my doctors finally put me on some meds but because im pregnant they want help much more. and i understand that thats why i stopped taking them when i got pregnant. but now i am at the lowest point and cant get my bp in control i put this front on for my kids and husband but inside i just want to die i would never do anything to hurt my baby seriously but it seems like im running out of options i have had bp since i was 16 and last july i ttried to commit sucide the doctors at the hospital didnt even understand how i made it and im scared i love my kids and i want to be strong for them i am just so lost at this point bp owns me like im a child being controlled by my parents im so scared i just wish my family would understand and help me but they all act like bp is nothing and totell you the truth i am terrified of it sorry for putting this on everyone just needed to let it out and nobody around here seems to want to know SO THANKS TO THOSE WHO UNDERSTAND THIS!!!!
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