So I have been staying in south Florida at my parents house since Friday night. I had a week in between work schedules so I thought I'd take a road trip and visit my mom for a few days. The problem is that it has been going really well and I finally am starting to feel like I am getting stable here. Haven't thought about suicide or cutting in a couple of days. That is a big accomplishment for me. I have to leave tomorrow to go back home because I have to work Wed night and have a tdoc appt Wed morning. I am not sure if it is a good idea for me to leave and go back home. I feel safe. I don't feel safe in my house anymore. My mom takes care of me and I am not alone anymore. It's nice to have company. I have already decided to move back home. I just don't know when yet. It will be sometime over the next couple of months. I can talk to my mom about what's going on inside my head and she doesn't look at me like I am crazy. Instead she has said she would hold my hand in the hospital to get me better. I don't know if it is the meds that are finally working to their full potential or the fact that I feel safe here or if it's a combination of the two. I want to come down here as much as possible but not sure if I can continually handle the 5 1/2 hour drive. I love my mom and we have become closer since I have become sicker and she has turned into a shoulder for me to lean on. I just don't know what I should do right now. I am torn about leaving her and going home tommorrow.
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