i haven't been sleeping,no more than 3-4 hours per nite, been hypomanic at least during the past week-2 weeks at least. my therapist convinced me to call the dr yesterday, even tho i have an appt. next monday with him. she didn't want me to wait that long as she sees me going into more manic phase without this sleep. and other symptoms that i am having. i am currently taking abilify, topamax, lorazepam, melotonin, and lunesta. when the dr office called me back, they told me to take seroquel 300 mg at nite, to help me sleep and to help my mood. and that the dr will talk with me on monday. i was on seroquel a long time ago, and i remember gaining weight on it. now i am scared of that. plus i dont know if i want to be on another anti psychotic med, both abilify and seroquel are considered atypical anti=psychotics. this scares me. but yet i had an arguement with my dr not too long ago, and i know i have to start trusting him again. i just dont know what i really should do. part of me just wants to get the med, to add to my secret suicide stash, but then again, my hubby needs to not be awakened by me not sleeping at nite. i dont know. just needed to vent i guess. thanks.
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