The people who love you for real still love you, always remember that! Please call your Dr. to adjust your meds asap.

When I crash, and I do alot everyone says it is all in my head. I get real paranoid. I feel like noone likes me, I feel ugly as hell etc.... It's just the crash after the wonderful good . Hope ya feel better....

I can only say it is in your mind and it isn't in your mind. Look at the past when you were depressed, did you push people away? Did you not want to talk about anything other than your suicidal depression?

Normies can't handle that! Not only does it make them uncomfortable it makes them speechless. My wife avoids me during this time.

Then at the same time my mind is out to kill me. It tells me all sorts of things which aren't true, it tells me a drink will fix me, it tells me everything but the truth.

I actully really don't talk about it with any normies lets just say i learned my lesson

You need to build a support system that works no matter what your mood disorder is manifesting as. This board is full of people that care. DBSA meetings are also helpful. Your family and friends may need to be educated about your disorder and to know that this is just a phase. I agree with ShawnC - talk to your pdoc and therapist. Above all, give yourself permission to feel like you do, but don't wallow too long. Exercise, sleep, nutrition - they're all part of the management of BP. If you need to talk, just buzz me. peace, t

Fair weather friends aren't really your friends to begin with. Blow them off and move on. They're not worth your time. True friends are there for the tough stuff, too. Your priority at the moment is you! Get to the doc NOW and get your meds adjusted. Focus on the things you can DO now, not on the details that don't matter anyway. :)

not to make excuses but i live in the woods (not really outside) i have to drive ove an hour to get to the pdoc and there is really no support groups up here. Thats why i logged on to this but actually hitting that reply button is really hard for me no offence to any of you

when i crash i start gettin calls from all my family. they want to know how i am and what i'm doin. they have all kinds of suggestions on what i should do to feel better. when i crash i want to be left alone. i know they do it cause they care but the best thing for me is to be alone.

My husband loves me no matter what but he does ask when the Manic buggie will be out to play... sometimes it makes me feel down. And yes my support system seems to disappear when I am down

When Im hypo....I laugh joke....party.....everyone "loves" me.....everyones buddy.
When I crash I push everyone away,and Im sure they dont want to be around me either.
Few people know Im bp...Im sure they just think Im moody.

Kris, great big hugs of support for you. It isnt all in your head. When depressed some of it is our desire to push others away and hide and some of it is that the people around us are fearful of upsetting us more, so they step back. They love you so it is important to have open communication with them to help them understand where you are and how you feel. Dont go too long this depressed, call your doctor right away. You need his support and possible additional medication or an adjustment.

Another vote for it's not in your head..that comes with a hopeful BUT...

When I'm up people generally find me very funny and almost, er..attractive. When I am down I disappear to them.

BUT..the ones that truly love us stay through thick and thin.

Sometimes those people are hard to find.

Sorry for just dissapering I just wanted to go curl up in a ball in my bed. Thany you all for your support

Hope you got some good rest kris.. welcome back *hugs*

I never really put that together till now that i read this. I'm up pretty high right now and laughing and smiling and all lalalla i love everyone and they love me. Before today i was all dumpy and depressed and i was telling my friend nobody cared and blah blah blah. Good thinkin'!