does it ever go away. i know you can take drugs and kind of balance things out . but does it ever go away? i hate being this way. i just want to love my husband/son. i just want to be happy like others i see. but no i sit here at home, i never go anywhere. why because i dont like ppl. because every where i go i see happy ,smiling,laughing ppl and i just wanna go up to them and smack them and bring them down to my world. when you join this board it askes you what your intrests are, i have noe or at least nothing that i can remember, im never happy and i cant remember the last time i was. ( other than when i met my husband witch has fallen from grace, so now even we dont get along much.) i cant even remember when i wasnt this way. more than 15 yrs ago. i just want it to go away.
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