on sometimes i can start off good and then by the end of the day i am totally spent drained irritable sometimes raging i feel so guilty i try not to do it to my kids but i do yell at them alot i am a good mom i work 7 days awk i have 2 dead beat dad we have a nice home new car i provide very well for them but its alot of stress for me making sure they have everything they need and making sure we dont lose everything but i have to learn somehow to contain this rage that lies just below the surface ready to leap out imm not violent i just yell and i growl i no that sound stupid when im angry its gutteral if u know what i mean and sometimes i scream and scream high pitched at no one just at the air but i no there scared its just frustration and my throat hurts sorry so long and then i cry cuz i feel like a failure as a mom i love them more than life they r my everything thats y i havent killed myself i love them more than me and they need me
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