on now i am just out of my mind mad ferous at whathappend to mei was treeded like i did not matter in this world by not one not two but by 4 diffrent doctors two being p doctors in the mental illness hostipals to gp doctors in two diffrent er i am out raged thatyou have to be dieing or tryingto kill you self to get herp at a er good what the hell do ytou have to do you bring in all your meds that take you blood say your lithem leval istoo low for the mg you take every day but do thay put me were i ccan be montered hell no that say nothing wrong with you you are blowing things out of the water theis nothing wrong becouse the blood test should have told them i was being over dosed on my meds hell look at the signs i am shacking fell lick i mahaving ahrart attack i never befor thatfirts day ever in my life had a panick attack i thought i was goingto die and at the thought of that i was like hell no i not ready to die FOR ONCE I PRAYED TO GOD KEEP ME ON THIS EARTH I WANT TO LIVE EVEN IT BE as a beeper i was not ready to check out of this world no am i to this day ready to check out i had 5 days of hell one earth tryingto detox off of all the meds belive mr for the new people that will read this DO NOT STOP TAKING YOU MEDS BUT BE VERY VERY CAREFUL OF WHAT YOU ASK FOR IN THIS WORLD YOU JUST MIGHT GEET IT ON A SILVER PLATTER once as begged dear God take mr from this pain take away the hurt the unsure i beged him to stop the pain told him i was ready yo be wit h my loved one thathad passed on from this world but when the time arised it head and ther was the over dose i was like wait stop the boat i want off not ready to die not ready to leave the living just yet i have more work to do hear
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