I have realized that I don't know how to relax.
I always feel like I need to be doing something productive, and when I lay around and try to have a relaxing weekend I feel guilty and restless and gross. Right now I'm on winter break from work (I work in the schools) I have another entire week off and I don't NEED to be productive. I don't really have anything to get done or whatever.
I have to sit here and constantly reasure myself that it's okay to just browse the internet/watch tv, I have to work at relaxing.
Is that weird? Where does that come from? Bipolar? PTSD? OCD? just curious what everyones thoughts are.
For the Evil eyes of a true narcissist to morphe into kind and loving eyes that trick you very early on?i was so desperate for love then,i admit,and very vulnerable.Did he prey on this,do you think?It is about 15 years away from him,and i still,still,can see those Evil eyes.But,very early on,was i just stupid,clued out?As well,he told me very early on that he loved me,which kind of freaked me...
to dump out there into dumpster in morning. Walked by the can on shelf in kitchen that had gotten nasty inside so into the tub it went. Washed it out and scrubbed it with brush but not total clean just getting rid of the stuff that cashed it funky smell when walking by it. Much improved!need to run laundry again. Wash working clothes my one shirt and two black pants!I get my slip proof shoes...