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Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Marilyanna 11/27/2007

I have given all my life.. Money, things, time. A smile here, and acake there, costume maker for the neighborhoood, dinners for the homeless, stew for families going thru crisis, fixing up houses and yards of senior ciitizens, planting boulevard trees, working for abused children funds,

covering people's shifts without ppay, buying school magazine/cookies/pizza that just goes in the garbage. making things (sewing) for people that they still have in their living rooms 13 years later.....I

have never once expected anything in return until now. Now I realize no one cared no one sent thank you cards. I have decided not to give anymore. People can go fuck themselves next time they need something.

I wont be there to help. What are your feelings? I strongly feel God has nothinng to do with this he is a piece of shit, and posiitive attitude is what got me into this so it would be of no help now.

deleted_user 11/27/2007

Yeah, I think I'm a giver until I look around and see the devastation I leave in my wake on a daily basis. I overgive because I know I have something to compensate for. Making ammends.

deleted_user 11/27/2007

Oh yeah, you need someone to watch your kids, I'll do it, need a ride I'll give you one. Not feeling well, I'll come tidy and cook for you. Since depression hit I have done nothing really for anyone and know what nobody even notices. So what did we accomplish? Nobody appreciated it or even cared, they are not here for me now when I could use a hand or a hug.

deleted_user 11/27/2007

I have always been to giving as well. Too many take advantage, or see it as a sign of weakness; nobody seems to appreciate it. I'm tired of being punished for being nice to people. What I do is offer to do something small first; you can tell immediately by the look in their eyes whether or not it's worth your while to be nice to them again. I rarely meet anyone worth giving to. Cold but true.

deleted_user 11/27/2007

Used to be. All giving and being nice has done has gotten me nowhere fast. I get shit on and walked all over. As far as the dating world goes, men don't want a nice girl, they want a bitch who's a challenge.
No more Miss Nice Girl for me!

deleted_user 11/27/2007

I love and I have 'cause to love. And yes I do consider myself a giver. I don't let the scum of the earth impede my giving though. Maybe you need to learn how to receive.
we can't offer ourselves with strings attached, or give too much without being humble enough to receive.I have a problem receiving, it's as sad as not being able to give. Be kind to you !!!!

deleted_user 11/27/2007

Aunt, as a giver, I resoled myself to that years ago. However, the giving aspect of life still manages to sneak back in before I can get it back into its cage with a club. No one ever says thank you, eat shit and die, or go to hell. It is just "what can we expect next time" Well, if i ca keep the beast caged NOTHING.

TKVanGogh 11/27/2007

I swing from codependent to completely dependent on someone but I don't know how it happens!

deleted_user 11/27/2007

I gave and gave and gave. To work,to daughter, to ex and especially to es's family. Gave so much that's part of how I got sick. Not one of them came thru for me when I got sick. Not one. From now on not a giver but not a taker either.

deleted_user 11/27/2007

I got sick giving as well, but thats part of me, I cant fight it, it makes me happy..

deleted_user 11/27/2007

I know you won't like my answer auntfeather but here goes; The bible says something about giving in secret, or not receiving the thanks deserved. It says that you will get your reward directly from God. I love that. I don't even want to say that I'm a giver, but I'm looking forward to meeting God.

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