Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
I can feel it slipping up on me, unwanted, unneeded, but nonetheless like a flesh eating demon, it continues to creep despite my attempts to keep it at bay and none of the the coping skills are stopping it.
So much to look forward to, but it looks so distant suddenly, within my grasp but out of my reach. Still I reach hoping, that I will not falter again, that relapse is a myth and I tell myself I past this, to no avail, because still it creeps it, surrounds me, caresses me it's cruelty and whispers all is lost, everything was for nothing, that I am a failure and I believe.
So much to look forward to, but it looks so distant suddenly, within my grasp but out of my reach. Still I reach hoping, that I will not falter again, that relapse is a myth and I tell myself I past this, to no avail, because still it creeps it, surrounds me, caresses me it's cruelty and whispers all is lost, everything was for nothing, that I am a failure and I believe.
TKVanGogh
I can totally relate, I felt that way from August til yesterday, I kept trying to explain it to people...the depression wins...sometimes, I don't choose it Who would? Anyway, only thing that helped me was knowing I wasn't alone. If ever I can do anything, please let me know.
deleted_user
Mine doesn't creep up: it never goes away. Don't know if that helps.
2Fast2KeepUP
Thanks Tk, if it was a battle that could be fought by strength in numbers we would all never suffer again by the care and help we receive here! I just completed a manic cycle, I should have seen this coming, I keep thinking. Now it's here and I don't want to face it! I want it to just go away, fast, like yesterday!
2Fast2KeepUP
I can't remember the last time I cried and now I sit here with tears streaming down my face and don't know why. Nothing I can point my finger at and say thats what done it! I can't go thru this again! I won't go thru this again! I cannot go back to where death walked beside me!
2Fast2KeepUP
Bump: I'm sorry I feel like I'm just trying to get attention, but I"m not, ya'll are the only ones I have to help me get through this! My only cry is help!
deleted_user
Not sure how this can help, except to know you are not alone. I too thought I was done with all this since starting Seroquel, but the last few days have just gotten worse and worse and now I'm back to being "stuck", depressed, and hopeless again. I was actually stupid enough to think I found the miracle cure pill and I would lead a normal happy life...HA!
deleted_user
Can you call your pdoc right away and put this in check? No need to suffer through a depression if there is something that may help you.
2Fast2KeepUP
Thanx! Lindel, I called my doctors office and left message they are out til 1 for lunch, but I know they will call be back, hoping to get this in check quick!
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
