With all this crap going on with my divorce, ex husband and now ex boyfriend...I'm going nuts! Throw in the fact that I have a crappy job, nothing seems to be going right for me, I'm tired of being alone all the time...still grieving for my grandfather and still have my moments with my grandmother, paw-paw and dad...I'm sinking and I'm sinking fast. I can't stop it. I don't want the depression to hit, it's hard to function when it hits. I've been fighting it for weeks now but after last night I just don't have the strength anymore. Depression is going to make my job a lot harder to do, but I'll make it, I'm a survivor. I've just come out of a mild manic state so I guess I should have been expecting this...I just don't know how to deal anymore. My ex husband was the one I went to when I started to feel this way and now he's not here and a contributing factor. I'm having to learn all over again how to cope with being bipolar. This sucks! I know I'm ranting and rambling but just had a lot on my mind and wanted to get it out there in cyberspace...this is it though, I promise.
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