I had such a great day yesterday.My mood was great.Today I woke up,I was OK,not great, and slowly descended into a deep depression.It got worse as the day went on...The inspirational cd's that usually help didn't work,reading the bible didn't work.I forced myself to go to a coda meeting,just so I won't be by myself with all these negative emotions.I wanted to take something that would totally knock me unconcious,but so far I haven't. I don't understand myself.I take my meds regularly,I'm eating right,and doing the best I can to sleep enough! I show up to work...what else? Is this bipolar?What the heck is wrong with me? I just want to cry but the tears don't come.I wish I could just vanish!
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