Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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depression again?

sepi
sepi
I had such a great day yesterday.My mood was great.Today I woke up,I was OK,not great, and slowly descended into a deep depression.It got worse as the day went on...The inspirational cd's that usually help didn't work,reading the bible didn't work.I forced myself to go to a coda meeting,just so I won't be by myself with all these negative emotions.I wanted to take something that would totally knock me unconcious,but so far I haven't. I don't understand myself.I take my meds regularly,I'm eating right,and doing the best I can to sleep enough! I show up to work...what else? Is this bipolar?What the heck is wrong with me? I just want to cry but the tears don't come.I wish I could just vanish!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Please try not to be so hard on yourself. There are chemical reactions going on in our brains that make us feel the way we do sometimes. It sounds like you are making a huge effort to take good care of yourself but sometimes, despite that, the brain chemistry just gets out of whack. It's not your fault and you're not doing anything wrong. I hope the mood lifts very, very soon!
sepi
sepi
Thanks bergmci,I just want to learn to control my moods.Now my moods are controling me.I can't make any plans,because I don't know how I will be feeling by then!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Don't be hard on yourself or say its your fault! Its our brains that are not on track and we sometimes feel like vanishing or going at a rapid speed that we can't control.
inahaze
inahaze
It sucks! I know u are feeling ok and then all of a sudden u are depressed. U try and do thing rights, but still it happens. It never ends. I just had a great week last week and finally I felt good about myself, etc. and this weekend I crashed badly. Still trying to get over it. It truly sucks. I am sorry I have advice or help. I just want u to know u are not alone. I hope u feel better. Take care!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Sepi, you're not alone on here anyway. I'll be on the board off and on all night. If you need to talk, let me know.
deleted_user
deleted_user
It sounds like you are having a mixed episode with the ups and downs. I know how you feel, I've been going thru it for a while now. I feel like a yo-yo and man, is it tiring! I understand about the tears not coming too...sometimes I wonder if maybe my tear ducts are dried up, lol!

You should be so proud of yourself by doing things right and making it to work! I wish I could do that!

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!!!

((( HUGS )))
deleted_user
deleted_user
sepi I'm with you on this. I get soo frustrated when i feel like i'm doing everything right and i still don't get any better. hang in there. talk to your pdoc maybe you meds need adjusting. try not to take it so hard these things just happening. I'm here for you.
dobiedots
dobiedots
It could be bipolar or it could just be clinical depression (pray for the latter). Only your doc can diagnose. Please see one asap, you don't have to live this way.
deleted_user
deleted_user
If the depression continues I would suggest you call your pdoc before it gets to bad. He may be able to adjust your meds to help you out of the depression.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I know what you are saying about the ups and down - i have been cycling the past 2 weeks, mostly depression though. it is so hard to deal with because you think that it is your fault and you should be able to do better. but i have to remind myself that i am doing the best that i can and i just have to ride it out.
deleted_user
deleted_user
some days go go back and forth manty time up down and back again I know it sucks
Think God it will pass love lillian
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