I have been in one heck of a depression lately. I know the reasons for it and I'm realtively confident that it will pass. But what feels so bad right now is that I cannot enjoy other people. Such as my family. They seem so superficial in the things they choose to do with their time. Also they try to fix me all the time. And I almost get angry being around them. I come on here and it's no better. Or the other place I go to also. I think I am trying to shut the world out or something. Or maybe the world is trying to shut me out. I have been spending most of my time sleeping lately. Hopefully if I can motivate tomorrow, I will go to the library and find something to read. This is a miserable feeling.
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