Same stuff happens to me and i dont know how i come back i guess i just snap out of it. Its such a strange state of mind.

Hi Shatt....yes, I do feel detached from myself most of the time, it really bugs me too! aaahhh!!!! I have had many friends tell me I am staring off into space, but I do here what is going on around me at the same time..??? I started a new med a few weeks ago and now it is 10 times worse trying to stay in focus and feel attached to any conversations around me. I have to really focus on what is being said and why then when I figure that out I join in the conversation. But...I can still feel all alone even in a crowd of people. Usually the conversation goes over my head so I just kinda pretend and nod my head alot. I don't even know sometimes if I should be driving a car?! Sometimes I will be driving to pick someone up and I will forget where I am because notthing looks familiar...I live in a small town...and sometimes I have to call someone to find out where I'm going and who I'm picking up.....best of all though...I can't make decisions anymore...I forgot how to!!! I can't think past the moment. Being in the moment is a good thing except I can't get out of it. I don't know why we feel this way my friend but it sure is frustrating. Good thing I am single. And yes it is scary...and when people tell me it's just cause I'm menoposal I know in my heart it is way more than that. Bipolar is a very challenging thing to live with and I suppose it is just another Bipolar blessing to be this way. What do you think? Could it be our meds? Missing chemicals? Take care. Love and Prayers Ramona xoxoxoxoox

bipolar blessings...well that's a nice way to look at things. especially since i'm not "officially" bipolar yet. i never could understand what was going on when i was in school. i always thought that i wasn't trying hard enough to pay attention. and i have a really hard time with social situations...can't figure out what's going on, so most of the time i don't talk at all. how rude of me...but it isn't on purpose. even when only one person is talking to me sometimes nothing registers. i've lived in the same area my whole life and still get lost going to places i've been many times before...and i can never give directions because i don't remember where i came from, or what was on the way. growing up my mom always used to tell me that i'm oblivious and neither here nor there. oh boy. ::laughs:: she was right...and i don't even know where i was or where i am now. there have been moments when i could actually be in the moment and really notice and understand things, but that was only a few times in the last two years...the rest of the time, i was just passing through.

I have people ask me what I'm staring at or what I'm thinking. I'm like I really don't know. Theyy'll say I was just sitting there for five or ten minutes. It's really weird. I almost got beat up one time it happened in a bar and this guy thought I was staring at him. He was a big guy too. To make matters worse I was wearing a pink shirt that night.

I detach when I spak about my childhood and the abuse I have suffered to this day it concerns those around me...

There was a time serveral years ago, before I had any therapy, that I would detach.
The more I healed the less often I'd have those spells and could better stay in the current moment.

I lose moments, minutes, days. I know I was there but have no idea what happened or was said. Weird. I have kinda grown to accept it. Just like all the other crap we have to deal with. Meds, don't fix it, and people, even though they ask whats going on, get tired of hearing about it. THe scarry part is when this happens and you are driving and realize you went like 10 miles but have no idea what was going on in that time. Yikes.

i used to feel detatched a lot. i don't really know how or when it stopped. i guess it did when i started to make a Real, conscience effort to get better. like it became my number one piority. (not that i don't still have my ups and downs.)
the therapist i had when i used to do that said i needed to try to stay grounded when that happened.
do you keeps rocks in your pocket? sometimes that helps. hold the rock in your hand. think about how it feels. describe it to your self in your head.