It is hard for normal people to understand bipolar people. Well that goes the other direction too I suppose, but anyway... they do not understand mania or depression. They tend to think within the framework of their own experience and understanding. I'm surrounded by red-blooded American workaholic normies. My whole family. On a day like today when I am kinda depressed, or maybe I'm just tired...they do not understand my need for rest. If I tell them I am depressed they automatically start trying to jump start my engine. My mother's favorite saying is "Kick yourself in the butt." And while this does work sometimes it is a very unpleasant way to live. I have learned that when dealing with these normies, it is sometimes better to just tell a white lie. Like today when my mother was checking up on me, I just said "I have a really bad headache." Of course, I don't have a headache but you see the normie can relate to the idea of how it feels to have a really bad headache and so they will leave me alone and let me rest. And so I can be free to take a warm shower, jump in the bed, curl up with my dog, and go to sleep like I want. With a totally clear conscience by the way. I am doing them a favor by handling it this way, it causes them less stress to think I am just having a headache, rather than to think I am having a flare-up. Well anyway, this works for me.
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