I was suicidal and really was going to do it and make it final no way back. I was severly depressed for the past month. Now im hyper as fuck. Ive cleaned the whole flat moving around heavy furiture. I went on a 5 mile walk out in the cold and dark. My heads bizzing i feel great.
its weird. I feel crazy as fuck. Dying one day with no engery to even wash myself then the next fucking enjoying ones self.
I dunno if i am bipolar, had no disgnosis offically but i feel i loop around alot.
Fell asleep just as the light went down...just woke up from yet another ballet school dream..i have them really all too often...Let me tell you....ballet is ONLY pretty on stage...training at a young age is a horror show.i don't know what i am supposed to process about those days but it must be something.So so sick of the bad dreams.And i resent the fact i may have to waste time on this in...
so this is about him not me for once.He’s currently in one of his manic phases. Really cold towards me gets aggitated one minute then is his goofy happy self the next. He just sits and stares at his phone but if I try to have a talk with him he shuts down. He’s in one of those phases where he buys a lot of things we don’t need.i know he’s been formally diagnosed with bipolar but since I...