I was suicidal and really was going to do it and make it final no way back. I was severly depressed for the past month. Now im hyper as fuck. Ive cleaned the whole flat moving around heavy furiture. I went on a 5 mile walk out in the cold and dark. My heads bizzing i feel great.
its weird. I feel crazy as fuck. Dying one day with no engery to even wash myself then the next fucking enjoying ones self.
I dunno if i am bipolar, had no disgnosis offically but i feel i loop around alot.
i can't get a doctor to diagnose me with bipolar. I know I am. They all say I'm just depressed but I know I am bipolar. I'm so tired of living with this way. I know what's wrong with me is more than depression. I need a mood stabilizer. I know I do :/ Any ideas ?
Trying to find so0mething to make. Something besides flowers I do0 not want to do anything too major just redecorate what can i decorate with? something colorful easy and different