I was suicidal and really was going to do it and make it final no way back. I was severly depressed for the past month. Now im hyper as fuck. Ive cleaned the whole flat moving around heavy furiture. I went on a 5 mile walk out in the cold and dark. My heads bizzing i feel great.
its weird. I feel crazy as fuck. Dying one day with no engery to even wash myself then the next fucking enjoying ones self.
I dunno if i am bipolar, had no disgnosis offically but i feel i loop around alot.
I had a kidney stone removed 3 days ago and a stent placed. Has anyone else experienced swelling in the groin afterward?
I’m so not okay. Mon and Tues were not so bad. But today I am really down. Made it to the pool. Splashed around a bit. Did a few exuberant jumps for my inner child. Joy just happens in the pool. Even on the worst days. Not always. But today. The water is blue and when I’m floating, I don’t feel so heavy.Would like to marry a mermaid and be even. In the ocean. With the fish.