HA! I'd write a will but I have lost everything being BP and I have nothing to leave!

hope this can put a smile on you're face? all I have to offer.. hope you feel better soon

8 weeks ago,I would have agreed with you.I had given up...I was never going to be better.WTF was the point.

Depakote.......4 weeks into Depakote,my life turned back on.I can breath,I see beauty....I realise how long I had been in the dark.I was close to doing "IT".

Now everything has changed.After 5 years of mixed or depressive episodes....I'm better than just stable...I'm really GOOD.
My Pdoc told me ,he has never had a patient stay on Depakote,because of hair loss.OK,so I'm going to shave my head and leave tufts and dye them purple.Now if I start gaining 50 more pounds...maybe I'll change my mind.But right now ,tonight...I'm glad I stuck it out.When other peole said that I would find the right med combo...I never believed it...now I do .It can happen.

Oh, I am so sorry. Keep hanging on! I can relate to everything you say. Sometimes you have to grab enough strength from others to carry you through. This is the depression talking, it really is. What I see is an incredibly witty, altogether good guy. I, for one, am so glad you're here. I hope you'll feel free to message anytime if you need to talk or just need an objective viewpoint.

Thank you all for your support. I doing a little better now, for how long who knows.

Babyphat your icon really brings me up. I keep thinking she is eating...nevermind.

Sickof, I don't have anything either but if I don't write a will all my stuff gets shared with my asshole sisters and brother instead of just my wife. I don't want to give them a pencil or piece of paper.

When you say, 'nice things will never happen to me'... you're shaping a future that's yet to be. I've been there, and it did turn around for me. So i still have my ups and downs, it's BP symptoms... but it's not me, and I've not gone back to that way low place in 7 yrs.

Hope you can find yr way through this dark time and start feeling better, as i always say, sooner than soon... :-)

hang in there... I am right there with you today... literally... I have had lets see.... woke up depressed, by 10 am I was manic by 1 I was depressed by 3 I was working back to manic the about 6 I went mixed then depressed and back to manic by 8 where I have hung til now and its midnight and I cant sleep.... which will either keep me manic tomorrow or my body will crash on me I wont get enough sleep and Ill be mixed all day.... and tomorrow is no day to be mixed... at least manic I can handle my sister in law... but mixed Im likely to punch her if she says the wrong thing or picks up a drink.... or tries to hide one (its her husbands (my brothers) 21st birthday.... and she is pregnant and an alcoholic.... and a major trigger of mine... her personally....

just counted... (seeing how I left out the commas... go fingers go....) thats 7 mood swings today... thank god all the triggers are gone I think. This has definantly been a trigger filled week of rapid cycling.

My meds have helped me a ton normally (ps Im hormonal atm) so it can be better... just keep looking you can do it... if I can anyone can

I'm doing better today, thanks to all of you who sent prayed, cursed, hugged, and ignorned me. I am doing better right now.

Sickof, if you like your family like I like my family wouldn't it be funny to have a Will read full of imaginary items only to find out that they got your left over underwear....if you wear some?