In my head...I can't stop talking to myself. I know I am not that interesting. Sorry I am out of it, not really feeling bad. but not good. Just sitting here talking to myself and trying to shake this feeling. Kinda alone, lost and numb. I am not even sure if that really makes any sense. It all sounds right in my head, but the reasoning is off somewhere. It is like I am obsessed with feeling nothing, the how and why of it all. Perhaps being in this place thinking about it is perpetuating the feeling, drawing me into the depths of internal emptiness. I don't know...Sorry for rambling, thanks for listening.
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