OK, how do u split the two? Yes i am depressed mostly.....i have days/moments smiling and laughing, just generally happy but at the same time i can wake up and feel like everything is black and sucks real bad and as the day goes on i get worse and worse, but then other times i can be having those "happy" days/moments then on a dime im frustrated, crying, and being irrational. And there really isnt anything that has happened to set it off, at times there are reasons, but usually its just my mind racing. But even after once ive calmed down a bit(which sometimes takes a long long time) i dont get back to that "happy" state again i feel almost emotionless and im completely exhausted by using so much energy i have to fall asleep and well even then its 50/50 wether the next day is good or bad. Now is that just being totally stressed out or would that be episode?
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