So...went a little bit manic and went on a massive shopping spree...I am still a bit high but am starting to come back down and reality is hitting...i didnt think it could be this fast...i am still feeling like things are buzzing but at the same time i am depressed which is really unpleasant...what is going on?! I dont know how I'm going to explain this to my cpn when i ring her tomorrow...im pretty sure she thinks there is nothing wrong with me biologically as i am on meds so it must be a behavioural thing. i honestly dont know what is going on. im just looking through all the stuff i bought...exercise equipment to get fit, diet pills and meal shakes to get thin, make up that i thought would make me look sexy (I dont wear make up), bright, sexy clothes (I normally wear black)...the list goes on...how im supposed to pay for it and buy food i dont know...what was i thinking? when i was buying it, it all seemed to make sense, like there was some grand plan the universe had created for it to fit into...now it just all seems a mess. i dont know who to turn to...
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