I am about ready to burst out of my body! I have been in a bad state all weekend ... very manic. On Saturday, I actually pounded my fists on the kitchen counter, threw some things around and screamed at the top of my lungs. I found myself shaking uncontrollably, crying hysterically and begging God to please please help me. I am so tired of living this way. I see my therapist today, so that's a good thing. I have to have surgery for an ovarian tumor so my doc is waiting to put me on meds until after. I don't know if I can wait any longer. I applied for medical assistance and haven't heard yet. They said it could take until mid-November to find out. It seems like every day I get worse and more out of control. My mind is racing and I feel really angry. I don't know what to do.
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